Does it hurt to say you hate your own nation? Well, yes it does. I am born and raised here and I still feel more at home here than elsewhere; I have tried. However, there are many times that I am heartedly ashamed of a lot of the people I share this country with.
No, I am not talking about the Dutch policies regarding drugs and prostitution. I am talking about the ever increasing hatred towards people who are not noticeably white enough to be called “Dutch” by most.
When I went to visit my current home-town for the first time I took the train and got to talking with a bunch of students from Rotterdam. One of them was a woman of color with Turkish parents. She spoke Dutch, was born here and had the Dutch nationality. She referred to herself as a foreigner. At first I didn’t understand why, until she started talking about how people looked at her and treated her. She was treated by a lot of people like she came from Mars instead of the Netherlands. When I heard her call herself a foreigner, I asked her where she was from and what nationality she held. She answered with “Dutch” to both questions. I told her:
“Then you are as Dutch as I am.”
She told me that it doesn’t feel that way. Whenever she and others like her are being referred to as a “demographic” it is always the term “allochtoon”, that is used for immigrants and refugees. This happened well over two years ago and the hate has merely increased.
We have a political party that has as its primary focus “putting a stop to the islamization of the country”, whatever the hell that is supposed to mean. Do they really think that this country will eventually become a Muslim country? I am more worried about it sooner becoming something else.
I can’t even play an online game without being faced with hatred. I recently disabled a chat-function in a game, because the gamers, instead of gaming, decided that they needed to use the chat function to express their hatred of Turkish people, who they believe don’t have a right to be in the Netherlands. It’s funny how white dutchies still love to go on holiday over there. Fucking hypocrites!
There are a bunch of politicians here who are spreading the hate and people are consuming it with glee. They want to hate. They want to point at people and set themselves apart and above them. They want to form small little clicks and exclude as many people as they can think off based on skin color, religion, body parts or what have you. They quite literally want to kick anyone who is not white or straight or able bodied or poor out of the country.
I am so sick of the hate. I am sick of the fact that I can’t express my hatred for the hate. They are allowed to hate, but I can’t even have freedom of expression when I don’t agree with them. Dutch people suck and are stupid. They have got no excuse. Every idiot here has access to books and the internet and still they choose the path of least resistance, ignorance and hatred of people they consider “the other”.
I hate them.